NO value in his blood

I had an enemy before I could start the first trimester of my life. He wanted me to agree with him so that I would be twice defeated.

But I survived.

Every covering was not to cover me and I was violated by him and them of all people.

Nonetheless I survived.

I grew up and thought I had control and met them and him. The love of my life, I was so happy and he violated me not just my flesh but my heart, pride, feelings, emotions, my core.

New bloodline to leave the tainted one - but the outcome was no different.

I did not think I could survive.

So I pretended to endure; but, that was a lie. Proverbs 12:22 lying lips are abomination to the Lord, but they that deal truly are His delight.

I thought that I could not survive these situations or hold on any longer…. I was coming unrivaled. The agreement that the enemy had been waiting on since I was being formed in my mother’s womb was released.

I knew better and turned to my then last resort, God. He is not like man and could protect me and hide me from the enemy. I collapsed before God and His word.

Isaiah 40:29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.

I was going down for the count and did not know how to live but was afraid to die, I had no direction.

Isaiah 58:11 And the LORD shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not.

I could not take life alone and felt that I had not support so I would take what I could get from others.

Isaiah 41:10 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

I assumed the position and surrendered to God. He hid me under His mighty wings and became my strong tower.

His arm is stronger than the love of my life and mightier than anything else that I trusted in the past.

I released my own agenda and allowed him to prepare a table before me in the presence of mine abusers: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. I forgave those who hurt me so that I could live and have goodness and mercy follow me all the days of my life so that I could dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

I found my safety in Him and I am not leaving.